Thanks, but no thanks....

Sometimes I think if there is a weirdo out there, they will somehow attract to me. I have definitely met my fair share. I could also add the "jerk" and "ego-maniac" and "hot-tempered" category in there, too. I think God is growing me and challenging me all the time with patience and long-suffering. But other times, I think God just wants to make me laugh. I had a few of those experiences this week. I had a guy I've never met before (or even talked to) message me on facebook and tell me I was the "girl of his dreams." Now, o.k...most girls would love to hear those words...IF they came from someone she loved. Not from a total stranger. Then it just screams...."YIKES!" And I run far, far away! I also had a dude call me up and ask me to meet him at Panera Bread. He said he saw my picture in the church directory and he wanted to meet me. O.k...so that's strange. No, that's just plain bizarre! Again.....run, far, far away! I just don't get me....or my feelings. It seems I am interested in no one....ever. Not even the most genuine of men. But then I start talking to one, and I am head over heels. How did that happen? I can't even put my finger on what exactly it was. I only know that my feelings scared me. I wasn't really myself for a few weeks. Maybe I was just so afraid of getting into a serious relationship...I know that is a huge part of it...but I also know that I am more comfortable just being my sassy, fun-loving, easy-going self...without the pressure of a relationship. I pray that changes over time. I pray I get so comfortable in a relationship someday that I don't feel that pressure. I think that will come when I completely trust someone. And that will come when God paves the way and opens the door. Until then I'll wait for Him and be very content living the single life and loving it.